I think this happens all the time.
One of the things that I see that causes people to turn away, is confusion and disorientation. UNCERTAINTY. When the freedom of God comes close to disentangle us from that which we are bound by (often things we have become comfortable and familiar with) it can be rather confusing and disorienting to say the least. But the people I speak of have had some very controlling fear based things ingrained in them. How many times have we heard that God is not a God of confusion?
I agree....he is not confused at all. But when his wisdom and his ways invade our space (shaped by alienation) you can be darn well sure that some confusion and disorientation is going to be experienced. Every time the Spirit moves to make a correction inside us to set another place inside us free, it turns our comfortable and definable understanding UPSIDE DOWN. That will create some confusion. If we want to walk with and follow Jesus into more and more places of freedom....be prepared to be confused and disoriented at times.
Once we learn to trust the one we are following, this confusion and disorientation begins to subside. As the life shaped by the attempts at living independently...alienated from God begins to die, and new life/free life.....who we truly are in him begins to rise up and walk. This is a walk of faith.
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
From The Message: Hebrews 11:1
The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on what we can't see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.
I love these thoughts by Richard Rohr. This is from an NPR interview. It was in December of last year that I ran across this. What a couple years of being Utterly Humbled By Mystery it has turned out to be.
"I believe in mystery and multiplicity. To religious believers this may sound almost pagan. But I don't think so. My very belief and experience of a loving and endlessly creative God has led me to trust in both.
I've had the good fortune of teaching and preaching across much of the globe, while also struggling to make sense of my experience in my own tiny world. This life journey has led me to love mystery and not feel the need to change it or make it un-mysterious. This has put me at odds with many other believers I know who seem to need explanations for everything.
Religious belief has made me comfortable with ambiguity. "Hints and guesses," as T.S. Eliot would say. I often spend the season of Lent in a hermitage, where I live alone for the whole 40 days. The more I am alone with the Alone, the more I surrender to ambivalence, to happy contradictions and seeming inconsistencies in myself and almost everything else, including God. Paradoxes don't scare me anymore.
When I was young, I couldn't tolerate such ambiguity. My education had trained me to have a lust for answers and explanations. Now, at age 63, it's all quite different. I no longer believe this is a quid pro quo universe -- I've counseled too many prisoners, worked with too many failed marriages, faced my own dilemmas too many times and been loved gratuitously after too many failures.
Whenever I think there's a perfect pattern, further reading and study reveal an exception. Whenever I want to say "only" or "always," someone or something proves me wrong. My scientist friends have come up with things like "principles of uncertainty" and dark holes. They're willing to live inside imagined hypotheses and theories. But many religious folks insist on answers that are always true. We love closure, resolution and clarity, while thinking that we are people of "faith"! How strange that the very word "faith" has come to mean its exact opposite.
People who have really met the Holy are always humble. It's the people who don't know who usually pretend that they do. People who've had any genuine spiritual experience always know they don't know. They are utterly humbled before mystery. They are in awe before the abyss of it all, in wonder at eternity and depth, and a Love, which is incomprehensible to the mind. It is a litmus test for authentic God experience, and is -- quite sadly -- absent from much of our religious conversation today. My belief and comfort is in the depths of Mystery, which should be the very task of religion."
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I read something by Walter Brueggemann a couple of months ago where he was talking about the psalms, and about how they are often laid out in a pattern which goes from orientation to disorientation to new orientation. It made so much sense to me and now I see it everywhere.
I intensely dislike that "God is not the author of confusion" line that people use. It's very simplistic to throw that at someone, with the inference that you are doig something wrong and if you only *tried harder* then you wouldn't be confused. Bullshit (pardon my Australian).
Pardoned you are.
I do find it such a difficult wall for folks to overcome. This idea of encouraging people to run away from confusion back into what feels safe is actually working against the power of the cross. Brueggemann does a great job describing it. The Psalms are full of it.
I love how Jacques Ellul approaches it in his book The Subversion of Christianity. I would call it the Subversion of Restored Relationships with God.
“No doubt some will reply that God is not a God of disorder, incoherence, or arbitrariness, but a God of order. Of course he is. Unfortunately the whole of the Old Testament shows us that God’s order is not that which we conceive and desire. God’s order is not organization and institution (cf. the difference between judges and kings). It is not the same in every time and place. It is not a matter of repetition and habit. On the contrary, it resides in the fact that it constantly posits something new, a new beginning. Our God is a God of beginnings. There is in him no redundancy or circularity."
That is very succinct. It's such a human tendency to take what God is doing and turn it into a building and make everyone do it for the next 100 years :)
Kent,
This was so full of illustrative LIFE!
Once we learn to trust the one we are following, this confusion and disorientation begins to subside. As the life shaped by the attempts at living independently...alienated from God begins to die, and new life/free life.....who we truly are in him begins to rise up and walk. This is a walk of faith.
In Him, we live, move and have our being
Rich
Kent you said,
"I do find it such a difficult wall for folks to overcome. This idea of encouraging people to run away from confusion back into what feels safe is actually working against the power of the cross."
To my way of thinking, these quotes from the Matrix seem most applicable, especially where Morpheus says.."But I can only show you the door".
"he Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.
Morpheus: I'm trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You're the one that has to walk through it."
Rich
I really really must watch The Matrix again. Last time I watched it was years ago. Be interesting to see how much more "wow!" it is now I feel like I've got out of my own matrix ... almost :)
The Matrix just rocks. I would love to hear your take on it Sue if you go watch it again anytime soon.
Rich, I think about that exchange all the time. My kids are getting used to some of the strange ways that I speak to them.
Every so often, when the time is right I will say to them: "At some point in your life you will awaken to the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth and you will begin to see it for what it is."
Sometimes they roll their eyes and say; "Whatever Dad." It just cracks me up.
Hehe :) Seems your kids will roll their eyes at whatever their parents say, no matter how cool and not-knowing and stuff it is :)
I wish my dad said stuff like that to me!
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