We are having a lovely rainy spring day here in St. Louis MO and I do love it. I love all the sounds. I love the smells. And I love what it brings with it. Beneath the surface of the ground many things are happening. Many things that will bring forth something beautiful. As sure as the sun rises and sets and in the stillness of the night the moon takes it's place, we are certain that these beautiful changes that are stirring will burst forth.
I'm feeling some thunder rolling in my life at present time. It's been with me my entire adult life and I wait patiently for the wider spaces of freedom that are still out there (or maybe more accurately still inside me) to be found. It's something I cannot escape as long as I live in this world but over the past few years I have been enjoying the fruits of some incremental changes that have happened in me with regards to this.
It's one of those things that affects and touches every area of every ones life. I think that when it comes to family life it is one of the most difficult things for people to come together on and unfortunately most settle for the usual power and control structures which in far too many situations ends up destroying relationships. What happened a couple years ago began to change the way I had always approached it in my life. It is through those changes that I feel freer today from the destructive patterns that had previously been a part of me.
Money is a part of our lives we cannot separate ourselves from but we can live free of it's power. I'm freer today personally than I have ever been in my life. "Things" have no seductive power over me anymore. Unfortuately though, the control that the economic systems holds over myself and my family is an issue. But I sense the days where it dictates to us what we must do have peaked and freedom in this area will continue to become more and more a reality as we walk on moment by moment. That became more possible once I began to see the lie of "financial security" for what it was.
All of this fits right into the middle of everything that has been going on in my life for the past few years. It is a part of the effects of power and control on our lives and how we live with others, I think especially with us who have been raised and shaped by the script of the western world. It is such a corrupting lie. Success just means something so totally different to me these days. Money is what it is and only what it is...a necessity. But it has nothing to do with the freedom for which Christ set us free. A good case could be made that it actually is something that stands in the way of that freedom. Not money in and of itself...but how we "see" it.